Touched

My world it turned to fog

I didn’t want the detail crowding in

And so I blanked it out

Specifics aren’t where I wish to begin

I’m crawling back to life

I cannot stay in limbo ever more

But not yet standing up

I wonder if I’ll ever leave the floor

And you who put me here

So proud of all that you have done for me

But I forgive you now

Your hatred cannot stop me if I’m free

You think that I am weak

Refuse to play your petty little game

But you can’t touch me now

For I am here and I have found my name

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Angel

You enter in where eagles fear

My agent truth or dare

A shaken stirred and bottles spun

And we are god knows where

I’m taking down the lines behind

For you are at the front

And what is fair in loving wars

When none is innocent

So leave me in the lurching sea

Deserted by your shore

For better is the worst of times

When wisdom wants for more

Abhorrent

Eternal sunshine of your mind has petrified my heart

Mistook your heat for warmth but I am fifty in your shade

The kiln in which you fire the brick that builds the wall so high

Has dried my soul like leather and my edges have been frayed

Your optimism hits me like a hammer to the chest

I’m on my knees and praying the relentless can be stopped

Oblivious of who you are, you don’t know what you lack

You think that I have fallen but I feel like I’ve been dropped

The positivity you have is wielded like knife

And up against my chest incises cut so paper thin

You operate on me to change perception of my self

As if your brutal strength will force acceptance from within

Pragmatic in my nature, I’m a threat to be destroyed

Abhorrent of a vacuum yet your love would make me void

Here I Am

Who’s the captain? Where’s the ship

Crest of wave and then the dip

Nearly drowning half afloat

Out at sea without a boat

Lost in desert shifting sand

Nothing quite as I had planned

My oasis now mirage

Little problem looming large

Soaking wet or arid dry

Life’s a bitch I can’t deny

Struggle just catch my breath

Here I am but so bereft

The Normal

The window opens just a crack

A breeze to stir the dust around

The stranger’s gone and won’t be back

My feet are firmly on the ground

He came and stole my breath away

The wind was taken from the sail

I never thought I’d see the day

That I’d be fresh and he’d be stale

My strength is not in arm and fist

But I’m a man of soul and mind

And finally I said desist

No longer need that love unkind

The dust will settle soon and then

The normal will return again

Happy Back

Time to get the happy back

Had enough of blues

There are many tricks you know

Techniques you can use

Seize the day and make a plan

Take a little walk

Meet a friend and have a chat

Always good to talk

Take a swim in waters fresh

Make a healthy meal

Tell yourself you’ll be ok

Feelings are not real

Have an early night so that

You can get some rest

Take care of yourself and soon

You’ll be at your best