Angel

You enter in where eagles fear

My agent truth or dare

A shaken stirred and bottles spun

And we are god knows where

I’m taking down the lines behind

For you are at the front

And what is fair in loving wars

When none is innocent

So leave me in the lurching sea

Deserted by your shore

For better is the worst of times

When wisdom wants for more

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Here I Am

Who’s the captain? Where’s the ship

Crest of wave and then the dip

Nearly drowning half afloat

Out at sea without a boat

Lost in desert shifting sand

Nothing quite as I had planned

My oasis now mirage

Little problem looming large

Soaking wet or arid dry

Life’s a bitch I can’t deny

Struggle just catch my breath

Here I am but so bereft

Painted

Alone in pearly grey so Garbo chic

Yet you anticipate my every thought

Insidious how you into me seep

But in your foolish games I won’t be caught

Without a word my star that shines ahead

How black and white has cast you in the shade

Your garish technicolour hues are spread

But man or mouse your plans are not well laid

And you will be the people’s choice no doubt

So populist but not what I prefer

You’re zooming in while I have faded out

So many things you are but not demure

Not jaded my depart from tinsel town

The queen is dead all hail the painted clown

Anchor

If you could just stay still

Then I could try to give you all the love and care you need

A minute nothing more

I’ll take a final look at you before you take your leave

For now your moving on

Some new adventure on the seven seas that must be tried

I stay behind again

While you going out and getting high I’m left to dry

Why don’t you find some peace

The newest waves will come and go without you taking part

Just hold me really close

And take a minute listen to the siren in my heart

But I will set you free

For you were born explorer and you choose to sail alone

But sometimes think of me

The one who only ever wanted you to be my home

But you can ebb and flow

For I will always wait for you and that’s the part I play

The anchor of your life

Without me waiting here you wouldn’t know you that you’re away

Not

Wanting you not wanting me

Perverse

Being had not having you

Was worse

Longing for the absence of

A touch

Finding what I wanted was

Too much

Dwelling in a place I don’t

Belong

Sleeping by your side it felt

So wrong

Waking far from you I was

Alone

Asking you to never take

Me home

Loving hating you is where

We are

Wallowing in sorrow how

Bizarre

Dead or Alive

What did you find in the bottom of the bottle
How many demons to release
Poured you a drink and then poured for you another
One way to get a little peace
What did you want when you told me you were leaving
I watched you falling out the door
Did you believe I would lose myself in grieving
I felt like I'd been through the war
You're so unkind on the days that you are drinking
How many days are in a week
Alcohol won but the friend got lost I'm thinking
Help wasn't something you would seek
Everyone knows never trust an alcoholic
They only want another glass
Hatred you'd spew after being melancholic
Thank you I will not kiss your arse
Nothing is found in the bottom of the bottle
Saving the pain on which your heartache seems thrive
Drinking is one way to numb the pain of hurting
Dead drunk but feel you're still alive