Being

Contemplating all I never was

Reflecting on the paths I didn’t take

Cogitating what and if because

Perception of the self is what’s at stake

Steps I’ve taken wonder were they go

A merry dance that somehow landed here

Worry in my head and yet I know

That nothing can be worse than what I fear

Time to put a stop to all this thought

Procrastinating traps us in the mind

Clear my head and take a little a walk

The joy of not quite sure what I might find

All I never was will never be

And thus I am a human being me

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Antithesis

And being me I plunged into the pool

I didn’t stop to think or make a plan

For I am the antithesis of cool

A really rather awkward sort of man

I’m not exactly archetypal geek

My brain is not so beautiful you see

And don’t expect some nerdish kind of chic

Banality epitomises me

Yet happily I swim among the sharks

Surviving without wing or need to pray

My motivation nothing more than larks

Though why it makes me laugh I cannot say

No evidence except my circumstance

But life is such merry little dance

Being: Human

So take a little look at me

I wonder what your eyes will see

Perhaps my disability

Or all the things I cannot be

More than a sexuality

I’m deep in my complexity

With spectrum seen disorderly

So when you try to label me

Make sure it’s three dimensionally

In being human I can be

A mass of possibility

A friend to you potentially

So open up your eyes and see

There’s good in all humanity

Bad Example

You set me up to fail and then

You ask me what I’ve done

Unwritten expectation in air

You take delight when I take flight

And god I want to run

But somehow you are always standing there

And so I try to justify

The accusations made

Your questions punch the stuffing out of me

And forced into a corner where

Your trap was so well laid

Example is what you have made of me

Same:Difference

Everyday is different

Everyday the same

Everyday my difference

Others seek to blame

One day I may falter

One day standing tall

One day this will alter

Barriers can fall

Everyone is special

Everyone unique

Everyone has questions

Answers that we seek

We can make a difference

We are much the same

We ensure that different

Isn’t cause for shame

Painted

Alone in pearly grey so Garbo chic

Yet you anticipate my every thought

Insidious how you into me seep

But in your foolish games I won’t be caught

Without a word my star that shines ahead

How black and white has cast you in the shade

Your garish technicolour hues are spread

But man or mouse your plans are not well laid

And you will be the people’s choice no doubt

So populist but not what I prefer

You’re zooming in while I have faded out

So many things you are but not demure

Not jaded my depart from tinsel town

The queen is dead all hail the painted clown