Echo

You echo still

Familiar and yet not

Expected and yet not

Not yet

Not yet familiar

Still unexpected

You, still and yet not

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Communication Breakdown

Who are you forgetting me

Message in bottle sent

Thought like waves across the sea

Written words you never meant

Where are you belonging now

Sharing all I gifted you

Want to stop my longing how

Changing isn’t what I do

Why did constant come to end

Can forever never last

Like a book to freely lend

Future from disrupted past

Question you don’t give your word

All the silence I have heard

Fall

I teeter on the edge yet never fallen

A streetcar named me liar as I looked

I live my life a stoic close to heaven

Pretending that emotion has no hook

Perfection is not something deep and dirty

And marble hard will never yielding give

So life will never touch and never hurt me

For I am truly not allowed to live

If only I was carved into perfection

But I am not statue from a stone

I am weak and I have sought protection

And look me so cold and so alone

I want to reach and hold but I am frightened

I wonder who would catch me if I fall

To feel my heart just once a little lightened

To answer to the voices I hear call

Homo Phobia

I twist and turn but cannot fit

No space in tiny mind

So flexible yet won’t admit

A place not mine to find

And so I sprawl and own it all

Create the man I am

A king who lives beyond the wall

The flood without a dam

I’m uncontained and unrestrained

No cramping of my style

Phenomenon quite unexplained

You cannot cloud my smile

I twist and turn contortion was

Creator of the new

But out of all proportion was

The hate I felt from you

Somewhat Queer

Happy when you’re here

Good to have a friend

Feeling somewhat queer

Which will never mend

Drink or maybe two

Propping up the bar

Fun I have with you

Near and yet so far

You cannot be mine

Love but not like that

Now is never time

Leaves my ego flat

Straight the narrow path

Free of any kink

Not my other half

Hearts are not in sync

Being

Contemplating all I never was

Reflecting on the paths I didn’t take

Cogitating what and if because

Perception of the self is what’s at stake

Steps I’ve taken wonder were they go

A merry dance that somehow landed here

Worry in my head and yet I know

That nothing can be worse than what I fear

Time to put a stop to all this thought

Procrastinating traps us in the mind

Clear my head and take a little a walk

The joy of not quite sure what I might find

All I never was will never be

And thus I am a human being me