Being

Contemplating all I never was

Reflecting on the paths I didn’t take

Cogitating what and if because

Perception of the self is what’s at stake

Steps I’ve taken wonder were they go

A merry dance that somehow landed here

Worry in my head and yet I know

That nothing can be worse than what I fear

Time to put a stop to all this thought

Procrastinating traps us in the mind

Clear my head and take a little a walk

The joy of not quite sure what I might find

All I never was will never be

And thus I am a human being me

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Antithesis

And being me I plunged into the pool

I didn’t stop to think or make a plan

For I am the antithesis of cool

A really rather awkward sort of man

I’m not exactly archetypal geek

My brain is not so beautiful you see

And don’t expect some nerdish kind of chic

Banality epitomises me

Yet happily I swim among the sharks

Surviving without wing or need to pray

My motivation nothing more than larks

Though why it makes me laugh I cannot say

No evidence except my circumstance

But life is such merry little dance

War of Independence

Without you here I’ve finally become

The man who walks away not looking back

The two divide and I’m remainder one

The future parts repressive clouds of black

I ran until my very breath expired

Then took the time to find the man I am

For life had left me bruised and broken, tired

Reality was nothing but a sham

The war of independence over now

Republic not subjected to a king

Consider this my last and final bow

For you to me no longer mean a thing

I’m not confined I live without a plan

Except to be a free and happy man

Big Man

The trouble is he wants to be a man

He’s overgrown his boyhood he assumes

If anger and aggression are his plan

The future very ominously looms

A man is not an animal you see

Maturity should bring a slight finesse

And if he wants to win the fight with me

He’ll always be a boy, no more no less

To put away those tantrums and those tears

And look inside to own the hurt within

For when he can admit both hopes and fears

Perhaps the days of adulthood begin

He thinks he is a bigger man than me

I’ll teach him all the ways that he can be

Bad Example

You set me up to fail and then

You ask me what I’ve done

Unwritten expectation in air

You take delight when I take flight

And god I want to run

But somehow you are always standing there

And so I try to justify

The accusations made

Your questions punch the stuffing out of me

And forced into a corner where

Your trap was so well laid

Example is what you have made of me

Same:Difference

Everyday is different

Everyday the same

Everyday my difference

Others seek to blame

One day I may falter

One day standing tall

One day this will alter

Barriers can fall

Everyone is special

Everyone unique

Everyone has questions

Answers that we seek

We can make a difference

We are much the same

We ensure that different

Isn’t cause for shame

The Normal

The window opens just a crack

A breeze to stir the dust around

The stranger’s gone and won’t be back

My feet are firmly on the ground

He came and stole my breath away

The wind was taken from the sail

I never thought I’d see the day

That I’d be fresh and he’d be stale

My strength is not in arm and fist

But I’m a man of soul and mind

And finally I said desist

No longer need that love unkind

The dust will settle soon and then

The normal will return again