Out on the Street

The street I do not walk because of you

I’ve found a very different way to home

And if I never face you I can be

Secure along the newer paths I roam

For now I only see you in my dreams

Those nightmares disappear into the dawn

Reality is brighter than the sun

And from my mind the deed it has been torn

Just recently I almost walked your way

I paused and took a different path instead

I wonder if I’ll ever pass your door

Without the drying mouth of fear and dread

Your bitter can not sour what is sweet

For fear cannot beat pride out on the street

Dead or Alive

What did you find in the bottom of the bottle
How many demons to release
Poured you a drink and then poured for you another
One way to get a little peace
What did you want when you told me you were leaving
I watched you falling out the door
Did you believe I would lose myself in grieving
I felt like I'd been through the war
You're so unkind on the days that you are drinking
How many days are in a week
Alcohol won but the friend got lost I'm thinking
Help wasn't something you would seek
Everyone knows never trust an alcoholic
They only want another glass
Hatred you'd spew after being melancholic
Thank you I will not kiss your arse
Nothing is found in the bottom of the bottle
Saving the pain on which your heartache seems thrive
Drinking is one way to numb the pain of hurting
Dead drunk but feel you're still alive

The Grim Reaper

You think I am responsible
I'm not
The flesh upon my weary bones
May rot
My putrid life is festering
Like sores
So you think I have no values and
No mores
Despising is the easiest
To do
For understanding needs the will
From you
And no man would invest his time
You see
But destiny has played a trick
On me
For I was once a someone in
These parts
But once the rumours spread we close
Our hearts
A man who's labelled does not have
A choice
They cast you off and take away
Your voice
And being out there's no way back
You know
And I have reaped what other men
Did sow

To Have and to Hold

Unbearable the tightness when you're lying next to me
You strangle my desire with the pledges you demand
A prisoner, your love is locked and I don't have the key
My freedom like my fate was somehow placed within your hand
Unbearable the burden yet I hold my head up high
Remembering that I was proud and noble once, before
Your shackles cannot stop my heart from dancing, do not try
My mind is free no matter how you lock and bar the door
Unbearable that you believe your love for me is strong
It's jealousy and hatred staring back when I see you
You want me disempowered but you know that this is wrong
And no man is not entitled to enjoy the things you do
My home is now a gaol and the sentence given life
But you can't own another even if you call her wife

Snakebites

So solitary youth a sulky snake that’s in the grass
The hidden pain concealed like acne scarred upon the cheek
A right of passage out to anywhere but here and now
Annoyingly its time withholding answers that we seek
A skulking mess of hormones in the sheets upon the bed
The energy for up and out it has already left
Another day of social hell where no one is a friend
At seventeen so poised for life yet totally bereft
If I could have my youth again I know I would decline
The biting angst of growing pains still gnaw me in the night
The wrongs I thought I’d write about still trapped within my mind
So angry in the dark that much has never seen the light
They say that youth is wasted but I think mine was endured
And even as I age I feel I’m not yet truly cured

Humanity

We each of us are something quite unique
Cannot be found in any other place
So I might be exactly what you seek
To put that fallen smile back on your face
So talk with me a while and take your time
Unburden woes that stop you living dreams
To need a helping hand is not a crime
And things are never bad as they might seem
My friend can I confess if you need me
You give me purpose make me feel alive
So lean on me my help is given free
In helping you I help myself to thrive
I need you most when you think you need me
This give and take is called humanity

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I’m an A D And an H D hyper bowling bitch
My disorder press record or you will miss my pitch
I’m the greatest catch the latest stupid thing I’ve done
Watch me unfold chipped the last mould I’m the only one
What’s your name man have a game plan I do not like fools
I will flaunt it run your gauntlet break your petty rules Defamation exclamation mark my every word
I’m the bitch queen this is my scene you will not be heard