But it is given.


But it is shared.


But you were driven.


But you were scared.


But only freely.


But do not bind.


But don’t forget me.


But on my mind.


Homo Phobia

I twist and turn but cannot fit

No space in tiny mind

So flexible yet won’t admit

A place not mine to find

And so I sprawl and own it all

Create the man I am

A king who lives beyond the wall

The flood without a dam

I’m uncontained and unrestrained

No cramping of my style

Phenomenon quite unexplained

You cannot cloud my smile

I twist and turn contortion was

Creator of the new

But out of all proportion was

The hate I felt from you


Contemplating all I never was

Reflecting on the paths I didn’t take

Cogitating what and if because

Perception of the self is what’s at stake

Steps I’ve taken wonder were they go

A merry dance that somehow landed here

Worry in my head and yet I know

That nothing can be worse than what I fear

Time to put a stop to all this thought

Procrastinating traps us in the mind

Clear my head and take a little a walk

The joy of not quite sure what I might find

All I never was will never be

And thus I am a human being me

Two Hands

Every moment I would share

If you would let me in

Loving isn’t easy when

You feel the need to win

See a side you try to hide

I know you are afraid

Love is not a game of cards

But here my heart is laid

I don’t know the things you’ve seen

Or why you shy away

Know that if I earn your trust

You’ll pull me close one day

Lover be yourself and do

Not fear I am a friend

Hand in hand I’m here right now

And will be till the end


Was taken for a ride I knew I’d like it

Unspeakable the things that have been done

And if your mind was opened you could try it

I fear you’re not a liberated one

So highly strung I sense that you might snap it

Restrained and yet you’re not a bondage fan

I look into your eyes and I can see it

Depravity it permeates this man

Release yourself I don’t know why you fight it

The urge is just a part of who you are

Submit and you will be allowed to bite it

No taste that can’t be found in this bazaar

Desire and lust can be a heady mixture

You look like you can handle what’s to come

My gauntlet’s thrown and so we have a fixture

Your pistol’s cocked so I can draw my gun

Out on the Street

The street I do not walk because of you

I’ve found a very different way to home

And if I never face you I can be

Secure along the newer paths I roam

For now I only see you in my dreams

Those nightmares disappear into the dawn

Reality is brighter than the sun

And from my mind the deed it has been torn

Just recently I almost walked your way

I paused and took a different path instead

I wonder if I’ll ever pass your door

Without the drying mouth of fear and dread

Your bitter can not sour what is sweet

For fear cannot beat pride out on the street

Dead or Alive

What did you find in the bottom of the bottle
How many demons to release
Poured you a drink and then poured for you another
One way to get a little peace
What did you want when you told me you were leaving
I watched you falling out the door
Did you believe I would lose myself in grieving
I felt like I'd been through the war
You're so unkind on the days that you are drinking
How many days are in a week
Alcohol won but the friend got lost I'm thinking
Help wasn't something you would seek
Everyone knows never trust an alcoholic
They only want another glass
Hatred you'd spew after being melancholic
Thank you I will not kiss your arse
Nothing is found in the bottom of the bottle
Saving the pain on which your heartache seems thrive
Drinking is one way to numb the pain of hurting
Dead drunk but feel you're still alive