He (a younger man)

He didn’t know how could he ever see

His doubting self had clouded up his view

And who am I to tell someone like he

That everything he knows is slightly skew

Inside himself there is both love and pain

He chose the one that gave him no release

He wants to lose he fears there’s nought to gain

But that’s a way of thinking he should cease

So infinite the love we have inside

No need to ration we have lots to share

He thinks there is a source that can be dried

But I will try and show him how to care

He needs to love himself instead of hate

For all he is is there and there will wait

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Abhorrent

Eternal sunshine of your mind has petrified my heart

Mistook your heat for warmth but I am fifty in your shade

The kiln in which you fire the brick that builds the wall so high

Has dried my soul like leather and my edges have been frayed

Your optimism hits me like a hammer to the chest

I’m on my knees and praying the relentless can be stopped

Oblivious of who you are, you don’t know what you lack

You think that I have fallen but I feel like I’ve been dropped

The positivity you have is wielded like knife

And up against my chest incises cut so paper thin

You operate on me to change perception of my self

As if your brutal strength will force acceptance from within

Pragmatic in my nature, I’m a threat to be destroyed

Abhorrent of a vacuum yet your love would make me void

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Discrimination touches each

And every human face

But I believe the world should be

A just and fairer place

With open hearts and open minds

That see the good in each

Religious folk who practice all

The loving that they preach

Equality for everyone

For women and for men

The black and white the gay and straight

So can we start again?

Eliminate this prejudice

That stops us being free

If everyone were equal think

How great this world could be

Not

Wanting you not wanting me

Perverse

Being had not having you

Was worse

Longing for the absence of

A touch

Finding what I wanted was

Too much

Dwelling in a place I don’t

Belong

Sleeping by your side it felt

So wrong

Waking far from you I was

Alone

Asking you to never take

Me home

Loving hating you is where

We are

Wallowing in sorrow how

Bizarre

Out on the Street

The street I do not walk because of you

I’ve found a very different way to home

And if I never face you I can be

Secure along the newer paths I roam

For now I only see you in my dreams

Those nightmares disappear into the dawn

Reality is brighter than the sun

And from my mind the deed it has been torn

Just recently I almost walked your way

I paused and took a different path instead

I wonder if I’ll ever pass your door

Without the drying mouth of fear and dread

Your bitter can not sour what is sweet

For fear cannot beat pride out on the street

Dead or Alive

What did you find in the bottom of the bottle
How many demons to release
Poured you a drink and then poured for you another
One way to get a little peace
What did you want when you told me you were leaving
I watched you falling out the door
Did you believe I would lose myself in grieving
I felt like I'd been through the war
You're so unkind on the days that you are drinking
How many days are in a week
Alcohol won but the friend got lost I'm thinking
Help wasn't something you would seek
Everyone knows never trust an alcoholic
They only want another glass
Hatred you'd spew after being melancholic
Thank you I will not kiss your arse
Nothing is found in the bottom of the bottle
Saving the pain on which your heartache seems thrive
Drinking is one way to numb the pain of hurting
Dead drunk but feel you're still alive